With a lot of time and effort.Here’s a list of what I’ve done.
(Everything had used up an enormous amount of energy and energy and did not just happen in a few weeks, but years.)
- Increasing stamina, I kept setting myself new and stronger reasons to keep going in case one fails came the next.
There were a few days when I gave up, but still kept going because… no plan it had to simply, but above all also fear of suicide.
Is that what I know now really everything. I went as far as I could go into the depths myself and researched solutions and looked for people who had mastered this.
If not, I tried not to heed them, which doesn’t always work, if so I went after this thing more. Meditation helped me a lot here.
It is not acceptable that I am so young and so fully utilised. “There have to be ways to reduce that burden,” I thought to myself. They exist, but also here just brutally difficult. I separated myself from people who don’t do me good, learned to communicate better. I changed my character several times over the years and looked for all kinds and ways to improve myself.
Over and over again, sometimes even with people I trusted very much. In the worst of times, I forced myself to vomit or bite myself just to make me feel better. In my opinion, you should let your feelings out, I had it hidden in me for far too long and piled up. In the end, it made my breakdown much worse.
The fourth/five (were two at the same time) were great to tell me what I wanted to hear and sent me to a clinic.
I think it’s important here, don’t wait until someone comes to you, you’re there for you.
Keeping things for yourself consumes energy, which is why I leave my opinion more and more free in the course. I learned to be myself more, no matter where and in what time I stand. It was almost always my true me and not the one I had built up for my depression. It was simply put off my mask and only needed for emergencies.
Doing things that bring joy, getting stuck in the eternal negativity is much more strenuous than going out and enjoying life a little bit.
I’m just happy where I stand now, my efforts keep paying off. I learned to love myself before, but never to the same extent as Today.
All points but 7 and 10 are things that I continue to do today.
Disclaimer: This was my way of fighting my depression.