A psychiatrist tells a patient to be a psychopath!And that’s good too!
I have also had the diagnosis, through a rather long trajectory where I ended up because of a long-lasting depression.I first tested for ADHD (found positive), then on autism (positive in light form), bipolar (negative), gifted (positive). After all these investigations there was still certain behavior was what was not explained, such as a lack of empathy, and I am tested on (secondary) psychopathy. I was also positive about this, and that made the picture complete.
A part of my depression arose from feeling different from others, with ADHD which did not help with (school) performance.Being gifted is also nice but is not fun if it is not dealt with appropriately.
What that whole story is really like is that I have done a lot of good to know what was going on, I know now that I am different and am therefore working on myself instead of asking me if I am different.
No I am not ashamed of it, I have not chosen how I was born.In fact, I am proud of who I am and cannot imagine being different (and would not like this).
How it is to live so?
I see empathy rather as a weakness, it is superfluous, the only one that can induce feeling to me are my neighbors and more than that is also not necessary.There is so much misery in the world that I am delighted that it does nothing to me.
Furthermore, I have my own opinion, so also really my own opinion and look at things.I know what can be social and socially supported by the bracket and what I have to pay attention to. I see things that others do not see because they do not see past the emotional. I can come across “hard and manipulative” in the eyes of some, but that is by my honest opinion (it simply does not excites me what someone thinks about me so nothing again keep me from being honest) and I do not sacrifice them back from others to become better themselves. In my eyes all very logical things, for others I know, not so much.
How is life for me?Since I’ve been learning to accept myself for what I am.. Great!
Ps.Apologies if the story sometimes seems long-winted and inconsistent, I type this during work.
Edit: Many people see it as something only, there is a difference between a malignant and benign psychopath.
The (forensic) psychologists that I have had the pleasure of being in contact with, could recognise this in me in 1 to 3 sessions.The more I myself was and unprepared came to their sessions, the quicker it went.
They do take the word in the mouth during the conversation with you, once they know that you do not own it and have knowledge of it.
I suspect that psychiatrists, or psychologists, do not confront people directly and solid with their clinical picture.Both of them need a relationship of trust with PATI脢NT to be able to do their job. This would be so confrontational that, in most cases, further therapy would be impossible with the therapist involved. In fact, they are not there to judge or condemn people, but to help them. Stigmatizing with “You are a psychopath”, she will usually not help, it seems to me.